Life is really strange. Sometimes you think you understand it, that you’ve finally got the hang of things and it just throws you a curve ball. I’ve gotten a lot of those just in the past few years. The same goes for a lot of other people I know.
I’m in a weird position right now. There’s been some family drama going on. I feel like I’m in a sitcom. Week after week the family plods along doing the same ol’ …

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This past year has been an interesting one as far as how my impressions of different people have evolved. I have a problem with seeing things in people that aren’t really there.
It’s so hard to separate your quick snap judgments of people from reality. So many times I’m interacting with a caricature and not the real person. It makes things easier when you do that, because you don’t have to invest the mental energy to truly evaluate them and try to see them realistically.
This …

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So much of what I feel has no basis in the real world. It’s all in my head. Rarely are the things I fear real. Oftentimes the things I should fear, I am completely unaware of. Simple things like how much sleep I’ve gotten will shadow my perception of how other people feel. If I’m feeling chipper, then I feel like other people want to be around me. If I’m feeling like crap, I feel like people don’t really want …

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Lately I’ve been thinking about all the time I spend doing things that just waste time. I waste so much time doing activities and spending time with people that don’t give me any real satisfaction.
Over the break I was at a friend’s apartment. I had an ok time, but at one point in the evening I realized that I really didn’t enjoy being with those people. We weren’t interested in the same things in life. They had different priorities and …

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I was talking to an old friend recently. She was in love with this boy. Hearing her talk about him, he seemed like a cool guy. One of those people you’d like to be friends with. She talked about how he said all these things that at the time she didn’t understand and could only appreciate later.
She was outside with him.
The sky was beautiful. It was the type of sky that only comes around every once in a while. When …

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I’ve written on Authenticity before.
I feel that the church is missing that a lot of times. This isn’t a pointing of fingers either, I’m part of the problem as well. There’s something about Church and being around other religious people that makes me afraid to open up. It’s as if my salvation depends on the validation of the people around me rather than on God.
My Dad was talking to me recently about how he had visited one of the older …

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This is a film I did Junior year of high school. My dad’s been hounding me to get him a copy of it, so here it is. I really enjoyed making it.

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I have a friend who is trying to raise money for her mission trip to Rwanda. You can visit her site here.
Any small amount will help or at least pass this along to someone who can donate something. Also prayer helps.
Also if you’re interested in film projects you should check out this site. It’s a film student who did a documentary on the great Soviet filmmaker Andrei Tarkovsky (who is now deceased). He interviewed friends, family, actors and collaberators in …

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I’ve been having a dry spell in blogging lately, mostly due to my class I was taking at El Centro.
This past weekend has been awesome. My cousin and his family came down for my sister’s graduation and stayed down here for the weekend. We’ve been in drain pipes, under bridges, everywhere I can think of in Dallas. I’ll be posting pics up later. Here’s some stuff to whet your appetite.

I just finished Lauren F. Winner’s book, Muddhouse Sabbath. Winner is …

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Sometimes life just keeps chunking lemons at you but you don’t have any sugar or even a pitcher. You do the best you can, but your best just leaves you standing in a puddle of lemon juice. Then at the end of the day you just shrug it off and go grab a burger and a coke. That’s kind of what today was like.

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