Posted by Landan.
Posted by Landan.
Loneliness

EDIT: I feel a lot better now. I called up some friends and checked up on them. This feeling like all things passes in time and can be waylaid by showing a little initiative.
I feel lonely.
My roommate is laying down on the lower bunk beneath mine. He’s on his computer reading. We stopped connecting a long time ago. We’re just too different. An invisible Berlin Wall runs through the middle of our room, keeping us from speaking to each other. I want to paint graffiti on it and write nasty things.
I feel abandoned.
The medicinal laughter and knowing looks of a good friend are replaced with silence and the glow of a computer screen. It’s always the same story. I let someone dig their hooks into me. Then a girl, work, or some new opportunity comes along and pulls them away, ripping fresh wounds into my skin. I stand there bleeding while they disappear off into the horizon.
I want to start over.
It’s hard to start over in the same place. Everything is a reminder of the past. When I’m in a familiar place, I can see the ghostly images of the past overlaying the present. People that are no longer here running around campus in transient forms.
There’s a party outside.
I can hear laughter and music. Why am I such a wet blanket? Why does it seem to be inherent to my nature? I wish I was not so negative.
I need a hug.
You owe me one
Yeah I do. I think it would be cool if Kaley and I took a road trip down to your place sometime. We could go hang out in Tyler or something like that.
I’ll be back home in a couple of weeks. We’ll talk then.
Once again….writing that transmits not only words but emotions. I relate. And if you ever need a hug…..
I may take you up on that
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