So things worked out a lot better than I expected. The person I talked to was grateful I told them the truth. They weren’t upset and had even more respect for me for opening up. Oftentimes I’m way too afraid of offending people. When I stand by my beliefs and feelings and say what’s on my heart, I maintain my integrity.  Whether the person loses respect for me or not is irrelevant.
Thankfully that wasn’t the case here. In fact in …

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EDIT: I feel a lot better now. I called up some friends and checked up on them. This feeling like all things passes in time and can be waylaid by showing a little initiative.
I feel lonely.
My roommate is laying down on the lower bunk beneath mine. He’s on his computer reading. We stopped connecting a long time ago. We’re just too different. An invisible Berlin Wall runs through the middle of our room, keeping us from speaking to each other. …

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I’ve learned some important lessons over the past week.
- Don’t blow stuff way out of proportion. Things seem like a bigger deal in your own mind than they do to other people.
- Try not to anticipate what a person is going to say before you talk to them. This leads to the previous point.
- If you write someone a letter and they don’t respond immediately, don’t assume that they’re breaking contact with you or that they’re angry at you. Sometimes …

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I told someone the truth. It was hard for me. I really didn’t want to do it. I rethought it over and over again. I thought maybe I could move on and never tell them, let them keep thinking a lie. However, I chose not to do that.
I told them how I felt. I think it was the right thing to do. But if that were the case, why does it feel so wrong?

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I killed Peter Pan.
It had to be done.
His elfish charms waylaid me from my task for far too long.
For a time he seemed to make me fly.
It was magical.
I soared above the clouds, flying loop-de-loops and figure eights.
Then something happened.
My strength began to drain.
His weight pulled me towards the waves, threatening to engulf me.
I looked down into his frightened eyes.
He knew what was to be done.
Without pity I cut the rope binding him to me, hurling his helpless body into …

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This is what I have done so far on my short story that I’m working on. It’s kind of aimless and was really more of an excercise to get me writing again, but I hope to finish it also. The general consensus seems to be that I could add some more characterization into it. I’m hoping that I’ll be able to have accomplished that goal once it’s finished. Tell me what you think and don’t worry about hurting my feelings, …

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I’ve become increasingly frustrated with someone recently. Sometimes you come to a point where it’s hard to see anything but that one thing about the person. This person can really get under my skin. I don’t want to be passive, avoiding conflict. Conflict isn’t necesarily a negative force. It’s a force for change which can be both positive or negative. Without conflict there is just atrophy. The key is understanding the proper and improper ways of dealing with and initiating …

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“We love those who know the worst of us and don’t turn their faces away.”
- Walker Percy
I’m currently reading Augustine’s Confessions (link). It’s basically a book where Augustine describes his life of sin before he became committed to God and the way that he was saved from sin by God’s grace.
In the forward of my Oxford Press copy it talks about how the work was intended as a way to shut up a lot of those who were critical …

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I’ve come to a crossroads again. I have something I feel I must do, but I’m afraid to do it. I’ve done it a million different times in my head in a million different ways. In my head when I do this thing I am cool and composed, but I’ve felt this way before and those two words never describes what happens.
It’s weird how I can trick myself into feeling like I have no fear. I am cool as ice …

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Sometimes there’s nothing better than dressing up as a ninja and playing an intense game of soccer with your mates.
We lost by a point or two, but I got congratulated on my hustling and defending abilities. I had a blast playing.

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