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So things worked out a lot better than I expected. The person I talked to was grateful I told them the truth. They weren't upset and had even more respect for me for opening up. Oftentimes I'm way too afraid of offending people. When I stand by my beliefs and feelings and say what's on my heart, I maintain my integrity.  Whether the person loses respect for me or not is irrelevant.

Thankfully that wasn't the case here. In fact in some ways I felt closer to them than I did before. There was a brief period where I felt really proud of the way I handled things. I started the situation out a little shaky, but I was able to maintain my composure and deal with it in a mature manner. There's always an elevated sense of living when you realize that you stepped out of your comfort zone and did something that was hard. Someone told me that feeling is called peace.

However, right now I feel drained. I put a lot of willpower, thought, and emotion into the situation. Now that it's several days in the past, the feeling of satisfaction has left. I'm slightly exhausted. I don't exactly know what to do with myself, what direction to go. I've climbed out of the pit and found myself in a vast plain with enticing options in every direction.

I'm ready to move forward, but I think for now I'll just sit down and stay put while I catch my breath.